Scared, Helpless, Hopeless, Loss, Weight, Fear, Uncertainty, Disappointment, Anger, Paralyzed 

These are all the words that my body has stored over the last several days.  

As I sat down on Monday to record my weekly video blog, I just couldn’t follow through. 

It’s taken me days to really realize what I’m experiencing and even find words.  

And, even in this moment, I find it easier to write than to talk. I cannot articulate, out loud, what’s  occurring, internally and externally.  

So, I write.  

Let me set this up for you.  

On New Year's Eve, I was sitting on a couch in Denver at the home of one of my dearest friends (also a clinician). We had just watched the ball drop. There was music and dancing and laughter and toasts. I was taking it all in. Feeling the excitement of a new year with new energy.  

I was so thankful that I was at this particular home: with the bi-lingual conversation, the multiple colors of people, the various socioeconomic groups. All landing in the sam...